I Am

I was a broken and scratched disk, damaged goods

I remember the needles in my arm standing at attention fueling me up so I wouldn't break down.

I heard those unholy words, scary words, words one should never hear; Leukemia 

I saw those scans, the determining factor, the one thing they didn't want me to see.

I worried if I would ever have a future or someone who loved me.

I thought I was headed for six feat under

But I want change.

I am an opptimistic, outgoing, intellegent old soul who wont ever stop believing in the good of the world.

I think everyone deserves a chance or two, they all deserve happiness

I need make others happy, to make them feel beautiful, and to help them be positive

I try to find the extraordinary in everyday ordinary 

I feel a fire of desire has ignited within me, wanting to set the world of change ablaze

I forgive the breaks of the fast and easily fill them with chunky peanut butter

Now I can change.

I will be a go getter, a loving friend, an amazing partner, and an even better hugger

I choose to lead my life with optimism verses a pessimistic outlook.

I dream to be happy, to be a mother, to be the caring soul one can come home to.

I hope to change the world, if not the world a person, if not a person, a day.

I predict taking over the Big Apple, having a bite and savoring the sweet. Carpe Diem 

I know I can be the girl with tattoos, a pinup look, a photographic mind, and a spirited outlook that can be a mother, wife, teacher, artist, and anything I put my mind to. I can be me without having to give up anything or anyone within that process. Today and forever more I choose to be the tiny girl with the big eyes and the caring heart who never stops wanting to tend to others.

I will change.

We Are Who We Are

 

Leave the shackles behind

No more judgement or critique

Just freedom to be, who you want to be.

Lying

cheating

....

Don't lie to yourself

Don't cheat yourself

Be who you are.

We are meant to be ourselves

no one person the same.

I shall be me

as you are you.

To be a mother (DYT it)

  Mommy

  Mom

  Mother

  Mama

  Momma

  Ima

  Mimi

Those are just a few of the names to say, a woman who has brought me in and up in this crazy world.

  A mother can be your best friend

or you worst enemy

she will always teach you wrong from right

Some lessons may be  hard, but she will   guide you.

A Mommy is not merely someone who gives birth

No.

A Mommy rocks you to sleep, kisses your boo boos, and cuts the crust off your sandwich.

She is a lady who's scent is home

There is never something she doesn't know.

Mommy reminds you of the good things in life. 

Momma is the soul she is the home.

Momma knows how to make a good meal

She makes every day fun.

As long as you don't do anything bad,  Momma thinks your're number one.

She'll love you forever, maybe not your attitude, but you're her star.

A mother is a woman who teaches you what you need to know to stay happy and level in this hellacious place we call life. She knows exactly the best things to say to put a smile onto your face. Mommy is SuperWoman, juggling thirty things at one time.

Te Amo Mama, Te Amo mucho.

Something I Love.

   Love.... L-O-V-E 
   a four letter word that contains so much meaning.
   You..... Y-O-U 
   how three little letters can make a word that make a phenomenal person astounds me.

Why must a mile...or 840 separate us

Two perfect creatures made for each other

Two souls intertwined and blended together

But 840 miles, it's way to far.

I love you 

I hate miles

You are my gem, you are my jewel, you are the blood rushing through my veins.

To be with you forever is more than I can contain.

Honey bare with me

we shall make it through

Third time is a charm

until we say

I Do